Surreal Feeling

Sometimes our daily lives and experiences feel surreal because they are everything we ever wanted them to be. And that feeling of something being so surreal that our reality feels untrue because it is hard to accept that we are living it. This feeling may occur on different occasions. For this article, I will talk about my experiences. In two different scenarios, one triggered a feeling of being surreal because I didn’t want to accept the problems that I was going through, and I tried to avoid them. And the second one triggered me to feel this surreal reality where it was too good to be true. The funny thing is, you think very similarly in both scenarios, even if these effects are the complete opposite.

Alright, so the former situation was a crucial moment and a tipping point in my teenage life where I realized that I had to stop avoiding what I was living, and I had to start dealing with my situations head-on. I used to avoid all these problems by drinking or doing stupidities, which I do not suggest. So, one time, things got overwhelming and, well, I did a stupidity, which triggered me to feel disassociated with my reality and felt as if I was living a dream. To be honest, not my favourite moment, so I instead did not go back there. And a quick side note, if you are ever feeling down or sad, do not use substances to avoid those emotions; it is better to embrace them, accept them and simply let them go, even if it may be a bit harder.

The latter situation is now. A few months ago, I started visualizing what I wanted and working towards it so it could become true. I would say: “next week it will happen,” “next week I’ll get the news.” Until one day, I got the news that I would be moving to a new city, and the next thing I knew, I was one week away from actually fulfilling what I had put my mind to and visualized - with the help of others. And the funny thing is that my life feels like a dream right now, so surreal and unexpected. And I can enjoy it from a somewhat different perspective, the life that I am living now compared to what I was living a few weeks ago. And since this all feels like a dream, every moment here, I have to be fully aware of what is going on, allowing me to enjoy and be more present in this new reality.

What I wanted to get through to you with this article because even if two extremes may cause the same effect or a similar effect, for both scenarios, you still have to be aware and conscious that this is your reality. And, we have the choice to either keep on doing things that way and simply agree that things will not change, or do something about your reality and change your perspective of how you see things. So, I invite you to become mindful about the reality you are living and ask yourself if this is a good dream and you want to keep on having that feeling, or a bad dream where you are simply not enjoying it and need to find another way to dream.

Z.